Tuesday, 16 October 2007

Suicide Note

Pirmi man gyod nako mahimundoman ang balita niadtong Sabado mao ako na lang gyod ning ipabuhagay. Naa man gud usa ka ulitawo ang nagpusil sa iyang kaugalingon tungod sa gugma. Gugma na sad!

Pipila na lang ka minuto sa dili pa unta siya mopaso sa nahuman niya nga Computer Enginering sa usa ka dako nga Katolikong tulunghaan dinhi sa Sugbo (nga dili lang nako nganlan), sa dihang iyang gihunos ang iyang kaugalingong kinabuhi pinaagi sa pagpusil sa iyang dughan. Ug mao kini ang nakita sa kapolisan nga iyang napadala nga SMS sa wala pa siya nagpakamatay:

... mahal na mahal kita kahit pinaglaruan mo lang ang puso ko.

Filipino gyod na kay dili man siya Bisdak, taga-Luzon man kuno ang makaluluoy nga binudhian sa usa ka babaye. Pastilan no, grabe gyod makapasakit ning uban diha, mao nga wala gyod intawon nakaya pa sa uban.

Nakahinumdom pod hinoon ko kang Kurt Cobain. Nagpakamatay pod baya to siya. Mao ni iyang suicide note:

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar. Please keep going Courtney, for Frances for her life will be so much happier without me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU.

Hinoon, sa akong nabasahan sa column ni Michel Tan, gamay ra man gyod daw ang magpakamatay dinhi sa Pilipinas ikomparar sa ubang nasod. Pero basin wala lang nila naihap ang uban mao nakaingon sila nga gamay ra.

Para nako dili na maayo magpakamatay pero dili sab ko moingon nga mga bogo ug walay hunahuna ang mga nagpakamatay. Dili sab ko kabasol nila. Dili man gyod sila angay basolon.

Mao sa mga ulitawo diha, ug sa ulitawo kaniadto nga gibudhian, kalimti na lang ninyo ang kasakitan nga inyong nahiaguman sa mabudhiong babaye, unsaon nga mao man na ila. Nalipay tingali sila nga naay nasakitan. Ignore na lang. Kung makahunahuna gyod mo nga magpakamatay, aw, ayaw lang ug hunahunaa aron dili na mahunahunaan.

Sa mga babaye nga walay laing mahimo mao lamang ang pagdula sa kasingkasing sa mga lalaki, aw, kamo na lay mag-igo kung padayonon ba na ninyo nga buhat. Dako na man mo, naa na man moy hunahuna. Ako lang hangyo, ayaw lag palab-ani.

Unsa na ni uy!!!!!

Ambot lang!

7 comments:

Darlene said...

Sounds like you are trying to say that girls are wicked & evil for playing men's hearts.Actually men & women are the same.There are men that are playful & so as women.It really depends by the individual you know. I can understand that you're a man & somebody might have hurt you badly enough that caused heartaches & you cannot overcome it yet.Just remember batang buutan not all women are wicked & evil like what you think & not all men are like you,very loyal when it comes to LOVE,you know what i'm trying to say?

weng said...

suicidal cases among Filipino men are reported to be caused by women. Men resort to suicide or suicidal tendencies if they are not able to cope with unhealthy relationship break up. They tend to experienced too much distress and depression.In most cases, relationship break up tends to damage men's psychological progress compared to women who are armed with different coping strategies. Maglisod man gud ang men ug share sa ilang feelings. dili man gud kaayo sila expressive. kasagaran nila ilang iluom and if their emotional tank mapuno na sa kaguol they resort to suicide. "tungod sab ni sa culture nato nga men are usually regarded as strong " boys dont cry daw". Unhealthy relationship break up is traumatic for most men if men managed to survive with this it would be very hard for them to trust women again in a new relationship.

So my advise for both men and women do not play emotions. do not enter into a relationship just for a try or for a game. do not overestimate other people's strenght.

and Women do not overestimate men's capacity to cope emotional distress . Some or perhaps most women think that men are men which means that they can easily find or hunt another woman as replacement if they leave them. "this is a sick thinking". think about it.

and Men: learn to manage ur internal struggles by sharing it to others and by acknowledging that you are hurting inside. if women leave you without valid reasons isn't it a BIG SIGN THAT SHE IS NOT WORTHY OF YOUR LOVE? let her go she is just a mess why dwell on the person who do not even value GENUINE LOVE.

girlfromdipolog said...

oh God, memorized jud nako sa una, (verbatim pa!) ag suicide note ni kurt cobain. sa akong ma-remember, something like: i'm too much of a moody erratic person... I'd rather burn out than fade away.. it's the trip not the destination...

naa pod nagpakamatay nga taga-UPLB, male student, niinom daw formalin. tungod sa gugma pod daw og acads.

hay! i hit rock bottom too. nag-away pa gani ako parents because of a letter i sent them when i was troubled and depressed. that was a long time ago.

you know it's unfair to blame girls. grabeh man pod makasakit ang lalaki oi. in my experince, he can be cruel in his own right. makuntento lang sa concept of friendship kay dili ma-get over ang ex. what is that?? what's the point, di ba?

batang buotan said...

darlene: i agree with your contention, and i'd like to put it this way; men and women are both angels and evils. both have good hearts. both have treacherous heart. some deny, some admit it. some simply dont react to be safe.. i know two women are more evil than devil!!!

weng: well said, it always sfe not to play emotions..

gfd: yes, i agree. wen one wish to die, no one has to be blamed but this should warn others.. makuntento lang sa concept of friendship kay dili ma-get over ang ex igo ko ani da. hehehe

Anonymous said...

Pastilan ba gyud ning mga bayhana pagka human nga makuha ang ilang gusto binu-angan na dayon mi nga mga laki..

Darlene said...

To anonymous:

Dong ayaw i generalize ang mga babae kay kaming mga babaye sahi ra pod sa lalaki. Mas daghan man gani broken hearted nga mga babae kay kasagaran dili tanan lalaki lawas sa babae ang giapas. Kung kami babae mahigugma todo dili sama sa kasagarang lalaki nga bisan ug naa nay isa mangita pag ikadoble. You're being judgemental, don't be every individual has different characteristics,behavior and attitude. Don't be such a narrow minded....

lucille said...

bahin ani mababaye ka man o lalake pwede ka makapasakit og tao. wala na sa "gender" nato. mas maayo pa dili nalang na hunahunaon kung kinsay mas dautan o kinsay makaluluoy, ang importante nga kita naniguro na dili makasakit og tawo. wala may perperkto! diba? diba? ibutang nalang nato... hehehe.